Women come to see feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Often the givers in their relationships they come to me feeling guilty for not giving even more and confused as to why they feel so unfulfilled. They’ve believed that this way of being would bring them satisfaction and purpose and instead these successful, creative, dedicated and committed women are depleted and on the verge of collapse.

The intricate process of womanhood is undeniably beautiful and complicated and what it means to be a woman is different for, well, each woman. What does it mean to you to be a woman? How would you describe what it’s like to be a woman? What does it even mean to you to be a woman?

I’ve lost my mind…at least it seems. A woman standing behind me points out my unzipped back pack; ‘Ma’am, you need some help closing that up. You might not want to lose anything in there.’ I politely complied. Moment later, the flight was cancelled. My friend goes into immediate action mode and seems to know exactly what options there are and begins to make decisions about how we can progress. In my freeze response – I don’t. I do, however, notice my feelings of lostness. My feelings of not knowing what to do and looking to others for direction. In that moment, the pattern, the role, the identity, the Me I know myself to be, had revealed herself to remain very present throughout the retreat. It was my ‘Passionately Held Bad Fit’ as it is referred to among us therapists.

My therapeutic approach is Somatic, I believe that for every thought and feeling there is a physical response in the body. Rather than just talking about your issues, you will experience a whole body therapeutic experience. You will learn to identify and connect with your sensations, learn to listen and rebuild trust with your body, experience healing from within and learn to release stress from your body.

She walks into the room and sits on my couch. As she opens up, she shares with me, what has become a familiar story in my work. She, like so many women, anxious in her complete exhaustion and has lost her-Self. As she shares of the pressure she feels to push herself ever harder in order to succeed, I sit and feel with her the stuck-ness she describes.

For A New Beginning In out-of-the-way places of the heart, Where your thoughts never think to wander, This beginning has been quietly forming, Waiting until you were ready to emerge. For a long time it has watched your desire, Feeling the emptiness growing...

The World Gains Nothing from Your Eating Disorder. Many times I have been told that the world gains nothing from my eating disorder. But when I am active in my eating disorder, I don’t think for myself as the eating disorder does all my thinking for me and the crazy thing about eating disorders is that they really don’t care what the world needs.

Welcome to my blog, The Golden Sparrow Flies. The Golden Sparrow is the name of my car, a 2016 Gold Beetle Dune. And it is when I am driving in my car, with LOUD music playing that I have my deepest thoughts, most significant connections regarding the pain from my past, my recovery an eating disorder and healing occurring in my life.