THE GOLDEN SPARROW FLIES

Welcome to my blog, The Golden Sparrow Flies. 

 

The Golden Sparrow is the name of my 2016 Gold Beetle Dune. My first new car. I bought this car during a time of great internal change and growth.  As I was describing to a friend/colleague of mine just how significant this car was for me, she asked if I had named it.  I haven’t ever named a car before but somehow it seemed appropriate and I was curious what she would come up with.  She said, “It looks like a Golden Sparrow” and with that has come a way to express this time of internal growth and change….Read more

 

The Wisdom That Comes From Our Emptiness

The wisdom of emptiness may seem strange or even alarming to you to read especially if you struggle with an eating disorder or an addiction because it is emptiness that we feel and want to avoid that compels us to use these behaviors in the first place. This is not new information within the recovery world, and I want to be careful to avoid triggering the eating disorder or addiction voice by saying these words but there is wisdom in emptiness.

You Are Loved and You Belong

“When it feels like something's missing If it hurts but you can't find healing” I went to church today. I have not attended a church service in a very long time and I was nervous.  As I approached the front door a woman introduced herself to me and handed me a...

How Saying Good Bye Leads to Authenticity

“Who am I really and how do I trust her to guide me through life?” As you might imagine, the topic of authenticity gets brought up and mulled over quite a lot in my work and folks express a lot of confusion and frustration around it. Indeed, it can be...

Change as Reunion to The Self

Change will come and change is HERE…. So true are those words.  Change always comes and change is here.  What is change but an opportunity to experience both our selves and the world around us in new ways?  Change isn’t easy because the flexibility it requires of us...

Refugee

“You don’t have to live like a refugee” were words spoken to me by my first therapist–so very long ago during my first eating disorder treatment and they have stayed with me for over 15 years. What does it mean to be a refugee? Well, a refugee is a person who has been forced to leave their country in order to escape war, persecution, or natural disaster. In essence, it is someone without a home…

You have to do it for yourself.

“I can’t! I can’t do it!” I cry out as I reactively cover my ‘ugly cry’ face with my hands. I’m in treatment, again and I’m sitting across my primary therapist and dietician at dinner. Trying to eat restaurant night with two eating disorder professionals is hard enough, but when they were also confronting me, or rather, my negative beliefs about myself is beyond anxiety. Seemingly to read my mind…”

Pictures of You

‘You’re never ready,’ she said, “You’re never ready. Whether you had a good relationship or a complicated one, you’re never ready to lose your mother.” Over the last year several of my friends and colleagues have experienced their mothers passing. I suppose it’s that strange time of life that seems to have just suddenly made its way into mine.

Already Gone

I have been an Eagles fan since I was a kid and have always loved this song. The simple and engaging beat made it easy for me to learn the lyrics and even as a girl I was drawn to singer songwriters. Although I loved simple pop songs, it was the stories within a song that I drew me in the most.

Living Out Our Much-Ness: The Golden Sparrow, Synchronicity and Channeling Janis

The World Gains Nothing from Your Eating Disorder. Many times I have been told that the world gains nothing from my eating disorder. But when I am active in my eating disorder, I don’t think for myself as the eating disorder does all my thinking for me and the crazy thing about eating disorders is that they really don’t care what the world needs.

Welcome to the Golden Sparrow Flies

Welcome to my blog, The Golden Sparrow Flies. The Golden Sparrow is the name of my car, a 2016 Gold Beetle Dune. And it is when I am driving in my car, with LOUD music playing that I have my deepest thoughts, most significant connections regarding the pain from my past, my recovery an eating disorder and healing occurring in my life.